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Spiders + Sovereignty

TAGS: Somatic sovereignty, power, spiders, and erotic embodiment


i trust the lady with spiders in her eyes

silk draped over her cracked skin

sharpened teeth under her honey soaked lips

fingers weaving webs with needles made of bone

somatic sovereignty is: the embodiment of self-sustaining resourcing

specifically, I think it is the capacity to recognize and intentionally work with the connection between the mind+body+earth as a divine/authentic source of highly intelligent, purely benevolent feedback

somatic awareness is simply the ability to sense oneself through sensation

I guess it doesn't have to be all fancy and divine - but I think it is! why not make it about god?

It's something we can trust without doubt (like god)

It's something available to us at any given time (like god)

And it serves us without an ounce of malice (like god)

but no, it doesn't have to be about god

people always ask: What does somatics mean? What is the soma? What in hot hell potatoes is going on around here?!

Somatics: the connection of the mind and body as a way to see/understand/perceive the inner self

Soma: modern dictionaries call it 'the body of an organism' and usually take a biological route with the word - but in this space, we go deeper and weirder ;) Here, we see the soma as that source mentioned above. The actual, literal body as an actual, literal source of intelligence and benevolent feedback for us to understand ourselves and the world around us. The soma is the body in it's absolute raw, authentic state of benevolence. It is the physical body, yes. But it is also SO MUCH MORE than just the tissues, cells, and proteins that make it up. The soma is unseen wisdom; the kind of intelligence that translates everything in magical tunes of our own vibrations. It is our body not just by way of our skin, our blood, or our bones - but the body in how we relate and communicate with it as an actual, literal source of wisdom.

(cool side note: in Sanskrit and ancient vedic ritual writings, 'soma' is a fermented beverage folks [likely gods, goddesses, and priestesses] drunk during worship rituals)

I find it easiest to explain all this shit by describing what it opposes..

it is the essence of being *ungovernable*

the essence of being *uncontrollable and unrejected*

by theory of opposites it is the essence of acceptance and freedom

it is somehow the other end of what we understand as conventional power

you know the kind..

so maybe it's unconventional power...?

I'm not exactly sure! But we always like a good spectrum around here, don't we?

<conventional power> --------------- <sovereign somatic power>

on the sovereign side of this spectrum we would see words + ideas like:

self-sustaining, inner-resourcing, self-governing, self-regulating, empowered by own values, liberated from expectations, accepted as it is without needing to change, favors growth/expansion/truth, earth conscious, accountability

on the side of the conventional power we would see:

dependency, extraction, entitlement, constrained to expectations of success by standards not written by us, rejection based on respectability politics, secretive, exploitative, sabotage

Those give very different vibes, right?

so therefore, i conclude...

that somatic sovereignty is definitely medicine for patriarchal wounds that we find in conventional systems of power

it is the fuel of living an anti-patriarchy and anti-imperialism way of life

I think a lot of us carry the patriarchy within us without even knowing it

I think we are bleeding from wounds we can't see (yet)

I think we have unknowingly weltered in the wakes of disdain disguised as safeguards

and somatic sovereignty is one way we can shed light to the wounds

and! our remarkable capacity to love the fuck outta ourselves :)

we might tie ourselves up in knots and think we cannot untie ourselves

the soma is where we might find the instructions to watch the knots loosen and fall from our bodies


what the heck am I even talking about?

Well! let's take a look at some notes i wrote back in July. I submerged myself in a few books and teachings on somatics - did some deep dives into the internet and found an extremely rich history on the soma that could honestly take up an entire collection of essays that i would be thrilled to eventually write [someday].

Notes on Somatics:

- the soma seems to be in a constant attempt of alignment to...*something* (definitions and understandings still needed by me - i don't have the language to actually articulate what I mean. like there must be a center point all of this radiates around, right? that the self? ..the soul? ..the soul-self? Like the UNSHAKABLE part of me that is never to be tainted by conventional ideas because it is so deeply embedded in divine insistence that nothing can seem to actually bother it?

because part of us that is GOD?!

(see ya, i need more help on this part)

- it's widley best understood not within the contexts of conventional western thought. old old writings by Greeks and old old languages like Sanskrit seem to have a way easier time describing somatics than modern science does.

- this is all unending. the wisdom of the body (the soma) is unending in its meditative awareness. Reginald A Ray says, ' fully present within our Soma...not only its openness and sense of connection but, beyond that, its spontaneous intelligence and inspiration."


So there's notes on soma, what about sovereignty?

the word sovereign literally means to rule, to control, to govern.

so why use a word that literally means the same thing as what I am trying to dismantle?

I dunno...because the English language fucking bloooowwws??

and *somatic sovereignty* sounds coooool

because i've been using the phrase 'somatic intimacy' for six years and this just FEELS RIGHT